Who can give me a hand ? I really want to stop my foolish act but I canny >What’s wrong with me ? Actually I don’t even need a relationship but now what am I doing ?!
I can’t figure it out ! it’s so annoying ! Godamnit >< arh!
I almost feel depressed and it’s just because of an IDIOT ! fk
I really want to leave this fuckin hell ..helpppppppp

There is another guy who treats me so good..But..i don’t even appreciate him..stupid me
I am not sure if he fancies me but at least I can feel that he has feeling on me
How do I know? ….Because I am a girl..so? And because of what he did on me
He is such a good man..however I am not gotta to fancy him EVER
Last night I was so depressed..no idea what to do and I just canny sleep
And obviously he was so tired but he still companied me until 1am++..
We chatted..
He asked why I love the idiot so much. I told I don’t even love him just fancy.
He asked why don’t I just fancy him instead. I answered cuz he is not gotta to fancy me back ever.
He told : love is blind. And how do I know. I said cuz he said I am not gorgeous.
He answered I am not gorgeous but beauty. I said they are just the same.He said nope.
I asked why he wanna company me and just listen to me to talk about this kind of bull shit.
He answered cuz he is a boy and I am a girl. I really felt confusing what did he mean or maybe he was trying to hint something.
I know it was so ambiguous. But really thanks him for companied me.
When I am depressed.He always tries to cheer me up.But the idiot?okay fine.
I have a conclusion that I am not gotta to chose anyone.I just want to be alone right now.
I am still very young. I don’t even get what is LOVE. Time ..is the only thing that I need most.
Happy Single Valentine’s Day.